a few days ago i was thinking abt happiness [inspired by carolines blog, of course]. sorry to disappoint, but i didnt manage to figure out the secret to happiness. haha if i was such a genius i wldnt be here now can. but after thinking so much i realised that our sources of happiness can be kinda contradictory.
some pple say you can only gain happiness from the wellbeing of others. but some other pple say that happiness comes from within, and only you can give yourself happiness. i say that there are different forms of happiness and they come from different sources. according to mingyee, theres like momentarily happiness and permanent happiness. momentarily happiness comes from the easy things, and its prob sth we have all experienced. like the happiness u get when you eat chocolate. or when you do sth you've really felt like doing for really long. or when you answer a really really hard question and prove to yourself that your brains not dead. or when you're with friends, and you just feel really happy for their company. but permanent happiness is sth you dont really feel. act i dont think i've ever felt it before. but i think its kinda like when two pple get married. they derive happiness from each other right. and its kinda longlasting since its a marriage. act i suppose it applies for any relationship la. as long as its permanent or semipermanent. haha. but actually i still dont know if happiness comes from within. i suppose that wld be more of a peaceful happiness? when ure at peace with yourself [and hence the rest of the world] and happy with your situation and everything? think that kind is really hard to achieve man. coz its so hard for us to be at peace with ourselves, much less the rest of the world.
or maybe happiness is how its defined in the pursuit of happyness. something that we can only pursue but never achieve. and thats true too. coz we are never satisfied with what we have. i think that only when we are truly contented and not jealous of anyone/anything can we be happy. but thats a state of mind thats hard to attain. haha prob some religious people have attained this kinda mindset? i dont know.
or maybe happiness is just something created by man himself. maybe theres no happiness, only a state of neutrality. most humans prob exist in that state but little things happen every day to make us a little happier or sadder. but nothing lasts forever. coz really, time heals all wounds. or at least makes our memory of it blur-er so we dont really feel the pain. yupp. so we just muddle through our life in this hazy neutrality with little fluctuations.
yupp. so this marks the end of my long winded post on happiness. gosh and i just found two very very sweet stanzas from wherever you will go by the calling.
(:
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time
a star fell from the sky;
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